"I don't want to marry her, Renakir," Sauk said, looking distraught. "But I don't even know if I have a choice. My father didn't explain any of this to me," He knew next to nothing about Vulcan culture, seeing as he tuned most of his father's lectures out and lived on Vulcan for only two years. For all he knew, betrothal had to result in marriage or they'd both drop dead. And for all he knew, T'kelio was in love with him and wanted this marriage. The thought terrified him. If he was marrying anyone, it would be Jack, and they were nowhere near ready for that.
"I'm just scared. And I'm scared for Jack to find out," He admitted, hanging his head. What if Jack thought he was just a side fling? That Sauk had always planned to marry T'kelio, and this relationship, this wonderful period of time in his life had just been out of...boredom? He was horrified by the thought. He wouldn't imagine himself with anyone other than Jack.
"I'll talk to her, I suppose," He sighed. He had definitely not been prepared for Panic! In Engineering. He tried to mentally shake the negative feelings from his brain and go back to the excitement of earlier. He was on a mission into a nebula! He was with a friend! He had the chance to be noticed by a high ranking officer! He shouldn't be working himself up over something that could probably be ended with the fancy version of 'let's see other people'.
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